Unbridled thoughts

I could hear you breathing heavily,
but sleep doesn't bless me nowadays..
I am getting restless..
When you leave me alone,
When sleep eludes me,
Dark thoughts keeps ruling my mind...
And all I wish is for a piece of paper and pen
to pour out my bleeding heart,
So that I can rest in peace...

Believe me..
I am trying..
If I fail please don't get hurt,
I don't intend to do that.
I wish I could try harder
I wish you could try harder than this
to make this work

I wonder how your touch or smile
can just make me normal
And all I want is not to do anything stupid...